When is the right time to say goodbye? An issue with a man

What the fuck is wrong with me and men?

My choices are all fucked up, they always have anger issues, mommy issue or just plain immature.

Am I so attracted to mentally ill men?

Do I plan on fixing them?

Am i attracted to the brokenness in them?

I am not a fucking psychiatric, I don't know the first thing of fixing anyone.

If I had the knowledge, I would have helped myself.

Or am I the one broken?

No. I am not. I have my issues, but they are not to the point of hurting someone. let alone, someone I claim to love.

Then why am I the one being hurt? Over and over again.

What is wrong with being met halfway. They all want to have the good without working through the bad.

Well, tough luck.

I am sick of all the effort I have to put in a relationship, for being wrong in everything I do.

What happens to guys mentality, once you surrender and give them your all, do they get greedy?

Yes, they definitely do. They expect you to do everything, no one of us don’t want to do our part to have the happily ever after.

Or is it a myth?

The happily ever after, I refuse to believe so. Love exist, actual decent men with maturity age higher than 6 years old, exist.

The decent guy who will show you -not just tell you- how much he appreciate you, and want you beside him, who is proud to have you, exist.

And don't let any boy convince you otherwise.

Am I too old? Am I set on my ways? I am 25 turning 26 years old this October, what will happen when I am 30 or even 40.

I am flexible with my partner if he is mature emotionally.

Being mature emotionally, will let them open up, put themselves in your shoes, they will be able and would love to lose the fight to win the war.

The war being, your relationship together. It is worth it at the end,

Men. just a word of advice, believe that it will be worth it at the end.

Being short-sighted is harmful to everything in your life, even your day-to-day decisions.

I would even go to the extent of taking Mr. Darcy of “Pride and prejudice”  who let down his guard and pride aside for a woman. For his partner in life.

The question now is; When is it time to say goodbye?

When you try once, twice, infinite number of times…

I am drained.

Emotionally and mentally drained.

Is it just me? Does anyone out there in this wide world feel even slightly the same.

With all this being said, I still naively believe in love concurring all.

Even when a guy who is too prided to talk a problem out and hangs up without solving the issue. I still believe in love.

I still support love.

And no matter what life throws at me.
I will still make lemonade and believe in love.

No man will ever take away that from me, that is my power.
Salute to every woman still believes in love.

Fuck you life.